Hello.

...You just hope for answers.

Christmas List...

Hello.

I already have my Christmas list:

1. A Wii

2. A new camera

That is all.

To Touch...

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So I learned something on Wednesday. You know the story about Jesus stopping the funeral in Nain and raising the boy from the dead? Well the bible says Jesus went up and touched the coffin:

¹¹And it came to pass the day after, that he went into a city called Nain; and many of his disciples went with him, and much people.

¹²Now when he came nigh to the gate of the city, behold, there was a dead man carried out, the only son of his mother, and she was a widow: and much people of the city was with her.

¹³And when the Lord saw her, he had compassion on her, and said unto her, Weep not.

¹⁴And he came and touched the bier: and they that bare him stood still. And he said, Young man, I say unto thee, Arise.

¹⁵And he that was dead sat up, and began to speak. And he delivered him to his mother.

¹⁶And there came a fear on all: and they glorified God, saying, That a great prophet is risen up among us; and, That God hath visited his people.

Luke 7:11-16

Well, literally translated from the Greek language the word used is "haptomai" (ἅπτομαι) which can mean "to touch" or more properly "to attach oneself to". Jesus didn't just go up to that boy and touch him, he gripped him. I mean yeah...the people who were carrying him would probably stop and look at him but attach himself to him...a dead boy...

Sure when he touched the eyes of people he was probably not gripping them, but the people with leprosy...did he just touch them, or like this dead boy, did he grab them...hold on to them?

Hello.

You don't realize how much you miss him

until you've gone without him for awhile

and then finally find him again.

Do you like me?...

Hello.

Ok. So I know people in this world worry a lot about what people think about them...mostly how they look and their outward appearance. Not everyone, but the majority. I admit, I have this minor problem as well. I hate leaving the house without at least mascara on because I don't think I look good enough without it on. I will say I think I have gotten better...I don't worry as much about hair anymore, I'm OK not going out in super cute clothes, I'm OK if my clothes are a little wrinkly (oh wait...I've never worried about that).

My biggest problem is worrying about whether people like me or not. If I get even the slightest impression (whatever that may be...most likely because I'm reading waaaay too into their body language or tone of voice) I completely close up. I've never thought about it before until now. One time when I was still dating Collin, we were at his house and for whatever reason I was under the impression that his mom was mad at or annoyed with me and even though I was starving I would not ask her for anything to eat...I wouldn't even ask him because then he would ask her and that would just give her another reason to not like me.

It's almost debilitating how much I worry about it and let it affect me. I started to wonder if this is where my shyness comes from and I fear that the majority of the time...it is. I worry so much about it that even people I don't know affect me. I really gotta work on this...

Thinking...

Hello.

I have a question...why is the forbidden fruit in the Bible always depicted as an apple in pictures and what not? Where in the Bible does it specifically say...Eve ate the "apple". It never does...so why do we always perceive it as an apple? Was it even really an apple? I mean, what if it was fig or quince (which are very common in the Middle Eastern, Mediterranean area)? What if it's a fruit that we don't even know existed because it was forbidden and there is only mention of one tree and it is in the Garden of Eden? Who decided it was an apple?

Ok I lied...I have a 2nd question...Satan is called "the morning star" or "the angel of light" but only once in the Bible (only some versions actually) does it refer to him as "Lucifer" (Isaiah 14:12). When the Bible was being translated from latin, lucifer was a combination of the two latin words lux or lucis meaning "light" and ferre meaning "to bring" or "to bear".

"quomodo cecidisti de caelo lucifer qui mane oriebaris corruisti in terram qui vulnerabas gentes." Isaiah 14:12

"How art thou fallen from heaven, O lucifer, son of the morning! how art thou cut down to the ground, which didst weaken the nations!" Isaiah 14:12

So is Lucifer a name we gave him, or is it a legit name of his?

Hello.

I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.