Wednesday, November 20, 2013

My Christmas List This Year...

Hello.

This year...my list is small.  Wanna know what my number 1 item on my list is?

Giving a gift to a child or family who won't get a gift this year.

http://mygiftcatalog.worldvision.org/site/TR/GiftCatalog/GiftCatalog?px=1438186&pg=personal&fr_id=1660

That's my wish list! ^

That's my profile page stuff! v

I love gifts! I actually love giving gifts more than I love receiving them. I love that feeling when the person opens your gift to them and they are surprised and excited about what you got them; that feeling like you've just picked out the most perfect gift in the world...pure accomplishment.
This year, my number item on my Christmas list is gifts that go to people who may not receive anything this Christmas.  I want them to have the gift someone was going to give to me.  The kids and families who do not get to celebrate Christmas because there are no gifts to be shared deserve to have their faces light up with joy as they unwrap or open a gift that is just for them.  I want to give them gifts!
Please give them a gift this Christmas as your gift to me.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Beautiful...

Hello.

Admired and loved do not begin
to describe the hearts so deep within.

Now as you walk where angels lay,
we will remember you, day by day.

Do not fret, for you're with Jesus;
and all your pain He then appeases.

Please wait for me at heaven's gate.
I'll be a minute, but not too late.


Tuesday, February 12, 2013

Just My Mind Spinning Again...The Trinity?...

Hello.

The trinity blows my mind. I think it always will. But, I have a...theory?...maybe. Lots of thoughts running through my mind and they eventually form some sort of solid, unified, idea...


The Bible says that when God made us, He made us in His image. People say that being made in His image means we are the only beings on the planet with a soul. Which yes I agree with that, but I think there is more to us being made in His image than just having a soul. We are 3 in 1 as well. Obviously not God, we are completely powerless, but we are 3 in 1, 3 separate, but 1 being. Father, we have a mind (a control center, ideas and thoughts creator, something that we cannot fully comprehend no matter how much we study it); Son, we have a body (living, breathing, the actions to our thoughts, something that dies, but in God, comes back to life); Holy Ghost, we have a soul (we have something that feels, determines good and evil, and searches). 1 Corinthians 2:9-11 talks about the Holy Ghost searching: 

However, as it is written:
“What no eye has seen,
    what no ear has heard,
and what no human mind has conceived”—
    the things God has prepared for those who love him—
these are the things God has revealed to us by his Spirit.

The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. For who knows a person’s thoughts except their own spirit within them? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.

Yep. That is what my mind has come up with.

Thursday, December 20, 2012

Did You Know...

Hello.

So, I found out that if you call the USPS at 1-800-610-8734 and say that you need a free military care package kit, they will send you free priority mail flat rate boxes, priority mail tape, and customs forms! It sounds like they change what type of boxes you receive every so often, because I found another woman's blog and she got a lot more boxes than I did.

In my kit I received:
2 Medium Priority Mail Flat Rate Boxes
2 APO/FPO Priority Mail Flat Rate Boxes
Mailing labels
Priority Mail Tape
Customs Forms
And the envelopes to put the customs forms in.

When you call you just give them your name and address and they mail the boxes to you in 7-10 business days. They also give you an ID number so that when you call again, all you put in is your ID number and they have your name and address under that number and they mail you more!

Many of the boxes are the APO/FPO boxes that can ONLY be sent to those addresses, so if you're just trying to get free boxes your shucks out of luck because you can't mail those boxes to regular addresses.


Monday, December 10, 2012

It's All In God's Hands...

Hello.

Sooo it has definitely been a looong time since I have written anything. Knowing me, it will probably be a long time before I post anything again.

I don't have an exciting post about controversial religion topics (which I always enjoy doing), but just a..."Here's what's going on in my life right now" post.

I'm stressed. A lot. These past couple of months have been a huge God lesson for me. I am learning over and over how to put everything and every situation in God's hands. It's hard and I will probably still be learning when I am in my 80's.

First, my boyfriend got deployed. If you don't know, my boyfriend Taylor is in the army. He has been deployed to Afghanistan. I can't say the deployment came as a surprise, because I knew he was getting deployed before I started dating him. That doesn't make his absence suck any less, though. I miss him terribly. I worry every second of everyday if he is OK. I pray constantly. I think I have prayed more in these past couple of months than I have prayed in my entire life combined (and that's saying a lot...because I may not be an out loud, fall on my knees and pray type of person, but God gets a lot of prayers from me all day everyday about all the little things in life). I walked around Target the other day like a zombie, completely lost in thought and sadness because I missed him so much. I cried at work the other day. It's tough.

Second, I am going to Peru (in 24 days). I am extremely, extremely excited for it. The 1st week there I will be doing missions work with the children of missionaries. Just because their parents are missionaries doesn't mean they don't need to hear about Jesus from someone else and get love and attention solely for them. I found out don't have the money raised that I need. So stress soared through the roof today. I still need to raise over $1,100 dollars for the missions trip. If I don't raise it, I have to pay the difference when I come home. I'm stressed. I feel like I'm pushing for money by doing this, but if you want to help you can go to www.cccomaha.org/give and set up an account. Once activated, login and select "Sort-Term Missions" and then select the trip  and Jaimie Lewis and enter your payment information.

I can't sleep. I'm stressed. Just...please please please pray that Taylor is safe, comes home safe, is OK when he comes home, and everything for Peru will work (not necessarily just money, but safe travels, God does amazing things in these kids lives, God does amazing things in all of our lives, and everything just goes OK).

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

Jesus Vs Religion...


"Institutions never bring life; the Spirit of God brings life. This is the difference between religion and life in the Spirit...I gave up on the power of religion a long time ago, because religion doesn't change a life. But, I've never, I've never given up on Jesus, because Jesus is the hope of the world; Jesus changes lives!"

-Pastor Mark Ashton

Monday, June 4, 2012

Something I Don't Understand...

Hello.

This is something that has been bothering me for quite some time: Why do people say "F" God? Especially atheists? It's just something I don't understand.  I mean, we push God out of our lives consistently, we don't ask for help, we tell Him we can do it ourselves.  So, God graciously gives us what we want.  Then when something bad happens, suddenly it's God's fault and He should have done something for us.  I mean isn't He supposed to always be there for us??  That would be like me working on a project and someone offers there help.  I say, "No I've got this. I don't need any help." I eventually finish that project, start and finish another one, and am working on a completely different one, when something goes wrong.  I turn to the person who asked me if I wanted help 2-3 projects ago and say, "What the heck?? Where were you?? I needed your help!" Just a wee bit ridiculous if you ask me.

I especially don't understand why atheists say it.  According to Dictionary.reference.com the definition of an atheist is: "A person who does not believe in God or gods." By saying "F" God, they are inadvertently claiming that there is in fact a God who has at least some power and control over how things turn out. So they are disclaiming their own beliefs. It just doesn't make sense to me!

That's all I've got. I just had to get it out there.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Good or Evil God?...

Hello.

So it has definitely been awhile. I apologize profusely. I feel like this one needs more work, but I promised I would post this one a long time ago, so it should probably go up.

I was asked these questions a while ago by some friends: “If God is all good, then why is there evil?”, “If there is evil, and God created everything, then did He create evil?”, “If God knows what is going to happen in our lives, is it really free will?”, and “If God knows what is going to happen in our lives before we’re born, then why would He let someone be made who was destined for hell?”

The first two questions (If God is all good, then why is there evil? And if there is evil, and God created everything, then did he create evil?) are kind of hand-in-hand. The first question you have to ask yourself concerning these two questions is: Does evil exist? Is it its own unit or is it just a lack of good? Does cold exist or is it just a lack of heat?

For those scientists out there, the answer to the latter would be, cold does not exist. It is merely the absence of heat. We use the word “cold” to describe the absence of heat that we feel. Just as a “vacuum” is not a “thing” but a word to describe the absence of…everything...we use the word “evil” to describe the absence of good.

God created everything “good”. He even said, “It is good,” at the end of every day of creation.

“God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning—the sixth day.

Thus the heavens and the earth were completed in all their vast array.” – Genesis 1:31-2:1 (NIV)

God created each of us with free will. We have the choice to be good or bad and to love or hate. When we choose to love God, it is so much more special to him than if we were all created to just love him with no options. God put the tree of the knowledge of good and evil in the garden of Eden with the one rule that Adam and Eve could eat of any tree except that one. Adam and Eve were given the option to obey God and love him, or to disobey him and do whatever they pleased. They chose to disobey. For someone to be truly “free”, they have to have choice. To make Adam and Eve really free, they had to have options and the choice to obey or disobey, hence why he put the tree in the garden in the first place.

In the cmspin.com article by Saraiah Faith Gracie, “Did God Create Evil,” it states that because all of God’s creation was declared to be good, evil did not come into this world as a product of creation. However, it did exist from the beginning, as a choice within the ability for created beings to make decisions. As Saraiah said in her column, “Because of this, it could be said that while God did not create evil itself, what He did create was the potential for evil.” Evil existed merely by freedom of choice.

That leads to a question of “Why would God even permit the mere possibility for evil to exist?” In reality, if God had not created freedom of choice, humans, as well as angels, would serve him because we would have been nothing more than mindless beings that followed him like sad puppies. We would trail after him, not because we loved and honored him, but because we would not have had the aptitude to do anything else (http://www.cmspin.com).

Free will leads into the next two questions (If God knows what is going to happen in our lives, is it really free will? And if God knows what is going to happen in our lives before we are born, then why would he let someone be made who was destined for hell?) which also go hand-in-hand.

An idea I read somewhere said that just because one knows what is going to happen doesn’t mean that free will is then gone; if you put a bowl of ice cream in front of a child and a bowl of vegetables, you know which one the child is going to choose, but that child still has the free will to pick whichever one he/she wants. Just because God knows you are going to put on your black shirt instead of your red one, doesn’t mean it still isn’t free will for you; and if He knows you are going to lie to your boss today instead of just telling him/her the truth, doesn’t mean it still isn’t free will. God is outside of time. He is there before you are born, he saw what you will do tomorrow both before and after it happens, and he can watch you in the present make that decision. One thought I have had is that God being all knowing means that he knows every single choice you can make in an instant, and he knows what will happen with each and every single choice you make, he knows every possible outcome (again that is just a thought that tumbles through my mind occasionally). Knowing these things though, he knows what the possible outcomes are, but he knows the ones you will make, thus being able to fulfill the dire need for his son to die on the cross for us, because of the way peoples’ choices turned out.

As I said earlier, God is outside of time. He created time, why should he be confined to it? To ask about God in a specific tense is to confine him to time. Just because he knows the future does not mean he controlled how you turned out. My pastor created an interesting image (that I am going to attempt to recreate) of our linear time and God being completely outside of it:


God can be at any point and see in any direction of time, while we are constantly in a single, forward motion of time. We can not understand anything but a forward motion in time. We can not comprehend never being confined to a single moment.

Monday, February 13, 2012

Christianity...

Hello.

So I really want to say this to someone someday, but knowing people these days have short attention spans, I am not sure I will ever be able to...

When someone asks me what my religion is, I would love to reply:

I am a Christian, but it's not really a religion...more of a way of life.

I am absolutely in love with a man who died a horrific death, just to save me.

I adore a man who suffered heinously, just to give me freedom.

I worship a man who defeated the grave, just so that someday I may overcome death as well.

Words cannot express my exaltation for this perfect lamb, Son of Man, my rock, my deliverer, savior, and hero.

Since many people will not sit to listen to me say this, I thought it would do better on my blog.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Project 4:4

Hello.

So if you have seen my Facebook then you know that my church is going through the Bible in one year, in chronological order. I am excited, I am participating, and I am loving it. It is a new adventure for me; and I love adventures (a lot).

Everyday, starting from Genesis 1:1 on January 1st, we read 5 pages a day. I started out a little behind since I was sharing the Bible with both my parents and sometimes didn't know where the Bible ended up (which my house isn't that big, so I don't know how I lose things so easily sometimes), but I was about 2 weeks behind at one point. But! I am now caught up because my parents bought me my own chronologically ordered Bible so I always know where it is. Everyday, Pastor Mark Ashton puts up "daily accelerators" that talk about the 5 pages we just read and go more in depth (http://cccomaha.org/blogs/project44/category/daily-accelerators/). I have found these to be extremely helpful.

I must say that within 1 week I noticed a complete change in my attitude, my happiness, my thoughts, my actions, and well everything. Today we just finished the book of Genesis and it has been extremely awesome. I've got a pattern down for my day, so I know and remember (key word being remember) when to read my Bible. I dwell in thoughts quite a bit, usually very sad ones, but I have noticed that by reading my Bible everyday, I pray more, and I don't dwell on sad things anymore. I am so much more happy and positive during the day.

I read my Bible right before I go to bed. I have found this best for me because well...I have a wild imagination and I let the smallest sounds in my room scare me (yes...I am still scared of something getting me in the night...yes I am 21). I hate darkness and I hate big spaces (hence why I have the smallest bedroom in the house, painted a wonderfully bright blue and green!). Back to my imagination....with it being so wild and out-of-control, I tend to not be able to fall asleep so well most nights. Since I have started reading my Bible right before I go to bed, my mind is more at ease, I feel so much more peaceful, and I fear nothing because my mind is completely focused on God. I fall asleep much quicker now and it's wonderful.

"The Lord is my light and my salvation-whom shall I fear?
The Lord is the stronghold of my life-of whom shall I be afraid?

When the wicked advance against me to devour me,
it is my enemies and my foes who will stumble and fall.

Though an army besiege me, my heart will not fear;
though war break out against me, even then I will be confident."

Psalm 27:1-3

Friday, January 6, 2012

Letting Go...

Hello.

Letting go is hard. Usually I'm very good at letting go, but when you hurt, letting go is hard. I have been holding on to some things for way too long and when there are no customers at work, or I can't sleep, I sit there and dwell on these things. It makes my heart hurt. I don't know why I keep thinking these things because a lot of these people (actually almost all) are not in my life anymore. I know it's unhealthy, but it is like a magnet or those light things that attract flies in restaurants and whatnot. I want to let it all go...I just can't. And it's not that I haven't forgiven these people (to there knowledge or not), but I have. I just can't stop thinking about it all and why people would say and do those things to another person. It just hurts. Then I hurt because of it. And I know my mom said that these people have long forgotten whatever it is you're holding on to and so now the only person it's hurting anymore is you and the only person with the burden is you (we were actually talking about someone else and what he was holding on to, but I carried it over to my situation), but it still lingers in my mind, unable to die.

Lord, just give me peace.

Friday, November 4, 2011

Happy Birthday, MOM!


Saaaayyyy whhhaaaatttt???? I'm 30 min early for my mom's birthday! But...November 5th....a great day to celebrate an amazing woman. She's the best. Ever.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOM!

Thursday, November 3, 2011

Steve Jobs...

#1-It's been a long time since I posted anything on this blog. I apologize.
B-I know this is a little bit of time after Steve Jobs' death, but it's just been on my mind...

An article was in our Omaha newspaper shortly after his death (as I'm sure it was in many cities' newspapers across the US). One thing that caught my attention was a little piece that said after asking his pastor, at the age of 13, if God knew there was poverty and hunger in the world (I am taking this from memory because I am sure my dad has already recycled that paper so it is not verbatim) and hearing his pastor's response, he never returned to church since then. I was saddened by that, as I am whenever I hear of a brother or sister in Christ walking away from Jesus.

But as I continued to think about it, I wondered...did Steve Jobs ever donate to charity? Did he ever give his millions or billions of dollars to someone who could really use it? I looked up that sort of thing and many people criticized him for never donating to charity, some suggested maybe he donated anonymously, and some said that him creating jobs through Pixar, Apple and creating items to make our lives easier was charity enough.

Then I thought about something I read in a book (I believe it was "The Case for Christ (or Faith) but I'm not 100% sure) that the question was asked, "How can God be so good if he just lets poverty and starvation happen here on Earth?" The responder said, "1st thing, since we've been shaking our puny fists at God saying we're gonna do it our way...that's just what God has let us do, it's our choice to run this Earth our own way. 2nd thing, that being said, can't God ask you the same question? If we're so worried about poverty and starvation, then why don't we do anything about it?"

So if Steve Jobs was so worried about poverty and famine and all things bad, I sure hope he didn't just sit there and blame God and then do nothing on his own with his billions of dollars.

Monday, August 8, 2011

Fighting...

Hello.

So recently I've been fighting with myself and with God. I have 2 things I want to do...both have their positives and negatives. For both of them, though, I've been laying out the positives and ignoring the negatives and expecting God to just throw the correct answer my way. I'm learning quite a bit of patience here...and it's frustrating.

Option #1 - Go back to school next semester (next semester meaning Spring semester since I've pretty much missed the fall one). I'm looking at Methodist Health College and Clarkson College to go into a nursing program.

Option #2 - Apply to go with my church to Mali, Africa for 1 week and have an amazing experience there. The 1st mission trip my church went on when I got back to Omaha was to China...which I would have died if I had been able to go there...I want to go to China so badly, but I don't think my heart was ready and I don't think my wallet was ready either.

Mission trips are one-of-a-kind experiences and I would absolutely love it. My heart has been wanting to go over seas or just out of the country to help and experience the Lord in different ways. I think my heart is crying for the Lord and it knows from previous mission experiences that is where I am completely immersed in his love and glory for children and people other than myself. My heart breaks every time I look at a picture of my sponsor child from Rwanda and hear the prayer requests he asks me to pray for him. I want to go through Compassion and meet him.

I need school though. I need to finish and get a degree now. I always throw in that I could finish and get a degree in nursing, then with that degree travel around the world to third world countries and help them there with my complete knowledge and training. I would be happy doing that.

I'll just keep praying and wait for an answer....grrr patience.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Hello.


A beautiful thing is never perfect.
~Egyptian Proverb

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Happy Father's Day...

Hello.


Late yet again...but this is for my dad. I never met a guy who can equal my dad. My mom is the luckiest woman in the world. He's the best Dad in the whole world...hands down.

(And no we are not about to drink in the picture...we are at a wax museum...being goofs...as usual.)

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Not A Religion...

‎"Christianity is not a religion. Religion is looking at our lives and seeing what we have done and then offer it to God as if it were a job resume. Christianity is saying to God that I have nothing to offer you and then replacing our resume with Jesus'." -Mark Ashton


Love it.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Mother...

Hello.

So, I am one day late, but I say better late than never right?

Happy Mother's Day to the most beautiful wonderful mom in the whole wide world. She really is amazing. She is a Proverbs 31 woman and I admire her completely for it. I can only that someday I am 1/2 as awe-inspiring as my mother. Thank you, God for such a wonderful woman.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

I'm So Gracious...

Hello.

So I went to Bible Study on Tuesday. It felt great and if work allows me, I hope to continue going every Tuesday evening.

We were talking about when Peter tries to rebuke Jesus, and Jesus then says, "Get behind me, Satan!" and we were startled about why Jesus chose such harsh words when he was talking to Peter. Probably caught the poor guy off guard. We talked about that...but that's not what this post is about...

We got on a lot of tangents while we were having discussions and this is where one came in. One of the girls brought up language in the Christian religion today and how our terminology is already different and harder for other people to understand (i.e. I asked Jesus into my heart...), but over time we have twisted some of the ways we say things almost to glorify us for being Christians. One example of that is "I asked Jesus into my life and became a Christian."

Who are we to say we let Jesus into our lives??? We are so gracious we decided to allow Jesus into our lives? No, when we become Christians, we should be saying, "I became a Christian because Jesus is allowing me into His life and His plans! He is the gracious One!"

That stuck in my mind all day today, and I know this post is short...but it's what was on my mind.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Child-Like Awe and Wonder...

Hello.

A quote my high school youth pastor told me once when I came to him with some questions, “Christianity is probably one of the simplest religions this world has, yet it is the most difficult for humans to grasp.”

Why is this? How can something be so simple, yet people don’t understand it, refuse to believe it, go their whole lives arguing against it, and/or do everything they can to make fun of or bash it?

We as humans are full of questions. As we get older, know all about science and philosophy, we try to explain Christianity through complex research for proof. We study history, we read ancient writings, and we look at the studies and discoveries in Biology. We dig as deep and wide as we can to find answers to these impossible questions.

You are probably saying in your head about now, “OK, Jaimie? What is your point?”

I recently read a book called Heaven is for Real. It is a real story about a 4 year old boy, who during surgery, was taken up to heaven to see Jesus. He never died, but got to spend some time with his Daddy above, for as he said, 3 minutes. He astounded his parents with descriptions of exactly where his parents were in the hospital and what exactly they were doing while he was in surgery, his story of meeting John the Baptist (asking if his dad knew that Jesus had a cousin who baptized him…what 4 year old knows that story?), how he met his great grandfather who had died when his dad was about his age, how the angels sang to him, and even descriptions of heaven that John wrote about in Revelation. He talked about being able to sit on Jesus’ lap when he was scared. Of course any person out of pure curiosity, whether a Christian for their entire life or a skeptic, would ask what Jesus looked like. His father asked him and this is how he responded:

“What did Jesus look like?” I asked.

Abruptly, Colton put down his toys and looked up at me. “Jesus has markers.”

“What?”

“Markers, Daddy…Jesus has markers. And he has brown hair and he has hair on his face.” He said, running his tiny palm around his chin. I guessed that he didn’t yet know the word beard. “And his eyes…oh, Dad, his eyes are so pretty!”

He went on to explain that Jesus was wearing white clothes with a purple sash, and he was the only one in heaven wearing purple. He also described the crown Jesus was wearing, but again he would return to Jesus’ markers. Finally his dad asks him what he meant by markers:

Suddenly, I had it. “Colton, you said Jesus had markers. You mean like markers that you color with?”

Colton nodded. “Yeah, like colors. He had colors on him.”

“Like when you color a page?”

“Yeah.”

“Well, what color are Jesus’ markers?”

“Red, Daddy. Jesus has red markers on him.”

At that moment, my throat nearly closed with tears as I suddenly understood what Colton was trying to say. Quietly, carefully, I said, “Colton, where are Jesus’ markers?”

Without hesitation, he stood to his feet. He held out his right hand, palm up and pointed to the center of it with his left. Then he held out his left palm and pointed with his right hand. Finally, Colton bent over and pointed to the tops of his feet.

“That’s where Jesus’ markers are, Daddy,” he said.

His dad went on to point out that most 4 year olds wouldn’t be able to tell you that. If you can get them to come out of Sunday school with the fact that Jesus loves them and He died on the cross for them to save them, you’ve done a pretty swell job. It is pretty rare for them to know the gruesome details of the crucifixion and to know that Jesus had nails in his hands and feet that left scars. Colton did not know that the “markers” were really scars and where they came from, but he knew where exactly they were.

As I read this, it was impossible to not be completely in awe of the details this little boy recalled of heaven; the stories he told. The entire time it made me even more eager to meet my Jesus and to see heaven for myself. But, it was amazing to hear these things from a child’s point of view. A call-it-as-you-see-it description, simple wording, and innocent outlook were what caught my attention the most throughout the entire story.

It got me thinking about all the science and studying that goes into Christianity and trying to prove it. Maybe it would all be so much simpler if we could all just go at it with child-like awe and wonder. It’s OK to ask questions, but to ask such deep ones when all we need to know is why God did this for us and why Jesus wanted to be the one to save us. I mean for me, sometimes all I need to know is that God loves me more than I can ever imagine and that He would send His Son to die on the cross for someone as insignificant as me; that Jesus loves me SO much that He wanted to die on the cross for a sinner, someone as undeserving as me. We as humans just need to simplify things and then Christianity won’t be so hard to grasp.