Monday, January 24, 2011

A God Sized Hole In My Heart...

Hello.

So I've had a lot of bizarre dreams lately. I mean I've always had weird ones, but these may be winners out of all my dreams. One that has really stuck out in my mind has been one that was completely centered around a bouquet of flowers. That is mostly all I remember from the dream actually. It was a huge bouquet and every single flower was at full bloom, full of color, and very healthy; all but one. There was just one that drew my attention because all but this one were up right and beautiful. This one was hanging over the side of the vase, wilted, and starting to turn brown.

I don't really get into trying to decipher dreams, because everyone has some meaning or another to try to explain dreams and most of it is a bunch of bologna. But this one just really made me curious.

Most everyone says that flowers represent health, whether emotional or spiritual. A healthy, bright flower can indicate vibrancy in life and many of them together can mean growth-in a career, personal life, or in the spiritual area. While a wilted flower can symbolize a thirst in the soul or possibly a cry for spiritual health.

I feel like all of mine has to do with the spiritual aspect of my life right now. My spiritual life was on a quickly falling slope last year. I have been working a lot to really put Jesus at the center of my life again. It's still in progress though. Sometimes I feel like I've pushed Him so far away and gone so long without Him, that I don't remember what it is like to have everything revolve around him. My soul thirsts for God to fill the void in my heart.


Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Pretend I Have a Cool Topic...

Hello.

I'm not sure anyone even reads my blog anymore. It's nothing fascinating. Buuuuuuut...I will keep posting because if someday somebody comes back to read it randomly, something will be there for them to read. A glimpse into my mind from 2011. I don't really have much I want to write about. I'm not creative in coming up with some super cute or awesome topic everyday (sorry), but I wanted to post a song. I recently discovered it, but apparently he's been around for a little bit. I really like him though.


(sorry I don't know how to post videos...?)