So recently I've been fighting with myself and with God. I have 2 things I want to do...both have their positives and negatives. For both of them, though, I've been laying out the positives and ignoring the negatives and expecting God to just throw the correct answer my way. I'm learning quite a bit of patience here...and it's frustrating.
Option #1 - Go back to school next semester (next semester meaning Spring semester since I've pretty much missed the fall one). I'm looking at Methodist Health College and Clarkson College to go into a nursing program.
Option #2 - Apply to go with my church to Mali, Africa for 1 week and have an amazing experience there. The 1st mission trip my church went on when I got back to Omaha was to China...which I would have died if I had been able to go there...I want to go to China so badly, but I don't think my heart was ready and I don't think my wallet was ready either.
Mission trips are one-of-a-kind experiences and I would absolutely love it. My heart has been wanting to go over seas or just out of the country to help and experience the Lord in different ways. I think my heart is crying for the Lord and it knows from previous mission experiences that is where I am completely immersed in his love and glory for children and people other than myself. My heart breaks every time I look at a picture of my sponsor child from Rwanda and hear the prayer requests he asks me to pray for him. I want to go through Compassion and meet him.
I need school though. I need to finish and get a degree now. I always throw in that I could finish and get a degree in nursing, then with that degree travel around the world to third world countries and help them there with my complete knowledge and training. I would be happy doing that.
I'll just keep praying and wait for an answer....grrr patience.
